The New Era Project

I'm Right Here

04:31
Vito Masilotti & The New Era Band Project
01/20/2009
Vito Masilotti

Story

          

This song was sort of unintentionally written in the musical style of Stephen Bishop (with some Genesis influence thrown in) about a rather unusual and puzzling experience that I had, regarding what I felt was a very strong, psychic connection with someone, that  kind of startled me and caught me by surprise. It's like that strange, surreal, eerie, unexplainable, but yet, rather strong impression, about feeling someone, whom you may have met along the way, knowing some personal and significant things about your life, that only you would really know! And visa versa... Which, one would hope, at least, to be a thing that could possibly lead into something positive. Instead of creepy. Yet, something, that pretty much, only they can really, (and truly) validate. Once again, it's always the way...

Note: The image (above) used to represent this track is mostly for entertainment purposes only. Not going to get into how this image can definately be mis-interpreted. There are certain people that I definately trust enough, to want to know where I am and all, and would even love to hear from, and see. (As I sort of like infer, with the lyrics in this song). But, being "a sitting-duck", as the saying goes, (or, as in the case of this picture: "a standing duck"!) or, deliberately putting "a target on my back", (and wanting it to be interpreted in some other crazy way), would definately not be implied with using this particular photo caption...

But, whatever the case may be, this is yet another track, directly related to the "Theme" album concept behind: "The Walkersville Sessions" album...

I just got caught-up, once again, in trying to choose my words carefully with the linear notes here; because of the nature of the album and all. And once again, (because I know that certain things can sometimes be interpreted in the wrong way), I was just trying to avoid giving the wrong impression... 

Got way off topic there, again. Just my way of attempting to describe the picture thing, in relation to the track. Keep in mind, that this, ("The Walkersville Sessions" CD), is a "Theme" album. Much of it, therefore, is related to a certain topic, that not by my own choice, and by its very nature, may be negative. Which, I at least attempt to turn into a positive, if at all possible...

Also, (once again), as with many of the other tracks here, some of the wording in the lyrics are designed to create a story-line, (and to make the lyrics flow better), rather then necessarily being based on my own feelings per se'. I mean, the line in the song which goes: "I have to have her and make her my wife" is totally fabricated. (As incredibly corny and hard on the ears that still sounds to me every time I listen to it, and wish I had taken more time to work on that part of the lyrics, but rather hastily went with the Stephen Bishop, romantic style of writing, in that part of the lyrics anyway - to finish the track and release it with the rest of the album rather quickly, and without too much effort, as I was not sure of how well it was going to be received to begin with). However, it is sort of like something that is kinda' like a dream line never-the-less. In other words, if there was someone who felt the same way, was genuine and authentic, and who had "the power to change my life", would I want to marry her "and make her my wife"? Sure. What decent guy wouldn't? But, that part of the lyrics in the song is really not my style. Kind of like an experiment in a way, once again. (Much of it being somewhat of a psychological experiment to begin with). Like most of the rest of the album. But I have to be honest, I still cringe every time I listen to that part in the song. Enough said, or I will defeat the purpose of the track and releasing the album in the first place...

For example, the story line (and girl) that this song is sorta' like indirectly based on, also has a very serious and bizarre twist to it. As I mentioned on at least one of the other tracks, the area where I lived, (where this song and album was recorded) is where they initially traced the anthrax attacks back in 2001, which I believe was directly related to the 9/11 attacks, and which took place right after that event. I have excellent reason to believe, there were many people in the area who were involved, and that it also may have crossed state lines, regarding the other very serious criminal activities that I believe these same people were involved. And, I also have excellent reason to believe, that the couple that this girl was staying with at that time at least, were directly involved in the anthrax attacks themselves, and were talking crazy sh*t (and lying) to her about me. Which would further lend credence (and which I had heard validated with my own ears), to my strong belief that these whole series of events were a conspiracy, and that the people who were directly (and indirectly) involved were the very same people who were targeting me in some way, and that the whole thing was planned-out to be that way from the very beginning. We are talking VERY sick minds. Although, I don't believe that this girl herself was involved, but the whole matter was extremely strange, to say the least. Now, a person is "presumed innocent until proven guilty," and I haven't mentioned any names here, or implicated anyone by name, but I am sure of it. I just needed that proof that I was right, and that's where this girl came in. And have to admit, that I was kinda' worried about her, (not only because of the very nature of the matter, but other things that I was picking-up on about it that fit the sociopath and extremely disturbing psychological profile of the people involved), but needed her, herself, to do the right thing, or else there was really nothing that I could do. As the ole' saying goes: "you can lead a horse to water but you cannot make them drink." I needed her to have the character, and to be smart enough to sorta' like figure these things out for herself, or as the saying goes: "say, lah, vee!"

So now, the question remains, how high-up does it really go? Who was really ultimately pulling these guys strings? (I believe I know). But, how deep does it really go? Were they working for the government in some capacity? etc. For instance, Washington DC is only about 50 miles away from the place where I lived, and allot of people from the area worked and commuted there. And, I still cannot shake that very disturbing story (among other things), about the FBI at the time announcing that they actually found the passports of the guys who hijacked the planes that smashed into the World Trade Center amid all the rubble at ground zero on that fateful day!!! Yea, right! Or when they were in the area investigating the crime, and it was reported that at least some of them allegedly had said that they just wanted to go home. Just wanted to go home? I don't know man. I just couldn't believe it. People coughing up blood and dropping dead from anthrax in their lungs, not to mention the ones who survived who will never be the same, physically or mentally, and they just wanted to go home! Wow. I remember thinking to myself: "Ya know, if justice is repugnant to you, you are definitely in the wrong line of work!" Absolutely incredible stuff, in more ways then one. Hey man, (I don't care what anyone thinks) but I didn't make this sh*t up! And, I definitely did not do anything to make all the lunatics involved do what they did, or bring it upon myself, in any way, shape, or form. I'm not gonna' say it, but they already did, what all this really means. (As absolutely incredible as that is in itself, with all its implications). I'm just gonna' leave it at that for now. But, (it's shouldn't take a rocket scientist to figure out why) it never ceases to blow my mind. Yet, at some point, one has to just let it go and try to move on. It's just too much for any one person to bear really. (And extremely embarrassing to say the least). But, that's exactly the effect they wanted. "Wheeww..." Beyond mind-boggling. There's got to be a special place in hell for all those who did what they did. Or, who deliberately failed to do the right thing, when it was in their power to do so, and even made the whole matter that much more incredibly malevolent by then actually lying about it!!! There are no words to describe what man is really capable of. That's one thing I learned for sure, if nothing else. And that blew my mind more then anything, in itself. Enough said...

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